Hello, enthusiasm?

Tomorrow begins the 2006 ST.n West Coast Regional Meet. It’ll be my fourth one, if you count last year’s side meet in Bend, OR as a separate event.

Problem is, I can’t psych myself up to go.

I mean, yes, I’ll go. I’m sure I’ll have fun once I’m there. But I just can’t get excited about it. I don’t know if it’s because I haven’t fully embraced the Z yet, or if I’m still tired from our Florida vacation, or if I’m just burned out of going to Fortuna every year…probably all of the above.

Diana was chatting with me this morning about possible routes to take up there (we’re sharing a hotel room this year), and I couldn’t even work up a smile about riding with her. One of my best moto-buddies!

I’m supposed to go get a Rick Mayer seat on Saturday…which was great until he asked if I could be there by 10am. “There” being Anderson, 160 miles east of Fortuna. Sure, speeding through deer-infested twisties at 7am. Sign me right up for that. Sigh. I told him I’d do my best. I really wanted to get the seat this weekend because they have a discount on ride-in appointments in May; that and already having the hotel room will save me over $100 on the cost of the seat.

My anxiety problems have also been through the roof this week. Shortness of breath, OCD tendencies, shaking hands, the works. Gah. Stupid brain chemistry.

I’m sure all of this is related. I probably just need to ride to Fortuna solo tomorrow and take my own pace and chill out.

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5 Responses to Hello, enthusiasm?

  1. Ken Haylock says:

    Have you looked at your recent schedule as documented in this blog? Hockey games, practices, etc etc. I suggest that what you actually NEED is a weekend of slumping sloth-like in front of the TV, maybe watching the Le-Mans MotoGP.
    Still, you’re right, you’ll probably enjoy it once you are moving. Slump next weekend?

  2. Linda says:

    More than a weekend, I think.
    Poof belong in “Women who do too much” (says the pot blackly).
    :: whisper ::I think they call it burnout.

  3. carolyn says:

    I can understand burnout, I had that for a while at work. But how the hell does one get burned out of their daily life, especially when one is legitimately happy? *scratches head* I got nuttin’.
    Slumping makes me even more depressed, sadly. Frickin’ Type A personality.
    Diana managed to bribe my brain with chocolate and Lush bath products. I think I’m good for the weekend. 😉

  4. Alan R says:

    Don’t underestimate your stress inventory, Poof. If being the big boss lady at work wasn’t enough there’s that wedding thing, which is coming up about 20 years sooner than you expected. 🙂

  5. Linda says:

    It’s easy. No down-time. Running around hitting little slidy things, and sliding big wheely things around, just isn’t down-time. Brain active all the time. Whoomph. Tired. Zoom.

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