December 8, 2000


i really hate being sick.
So, I finally went to the doctor this morning, for this stupid cough. Among other things, he gave me this cough syrup, Tussionex, which is apparently a Schedule III opiate. It has this funky sticker of a floating, confused-looking eyeball on the bottle. I'm totally scared to death of this cough syrup, so I didn't take any. Unfortunately, though, when I tried to go to sleep, I just kept coughing. I finally felt really bad for Peter (who undoubtably woke up every time I did), so I bit the bullet and got up and took the prescribed half-teaspoon of Tussioxen.

Almost immediately, my heart started racing, I felt chilled, and I thought, "oh great, now I'm going to get a panic attack on top of everything." [Note: for the uniniated, I'll just say that my most recent bout with severe asthma left me with a supreme distrust of drugs in general. Long story.] So I hopped back out of bed, grabbed my glasses and the laptop, and am now sitting here in the living room at 3:42am, still occasionally coughing. I feel this is a ripoff. Drugs with a side effect of "an exaggerated sense of well-being" should not then cause one to be an insomniac. I'm utterly awake right now. Dammit.

um....yes.
The upside of going to the doctor today, though, was that I got to sleep in a little bit (useless as that turned out to be since I was up coughing all night) and then ride to the doctor in San Jose and then back up to work in Palo Alto. The ride from my apartment to the doctor wasn't particularly interesting; it's a stretch of 280S that's mostly residental, flat, and straight. The ride from the doctor to work, though...that's one of my favorite short rides. I hopped back on 280, headed north, and as soon as you get out of San Jose and then Cupertino and then Sunnyvale, it turns really pretty. 280 curves through Los Altos and Los Altos Hills, and the scenery switches from corporate buildings and apartments to huge rolling green hills with enormously expensive houses littering the top ridges. There's lots of farmland around there, too, and often in the summer if I take this route, I'll pass a lot of cows grazing. It always reminds me of being back in Wisconsin. :) It's really interesting to me how the hills here are brown and yellow in the summertime and lush and green in the winter. It makes sense, since winter is the rainy season and it never gets cold enough to actually kill anything, but it's so backwards from the Midwest that it always throws me off a little.

So, yeah, it was great riding today. It was about 60 degrees and sunny -- warm enough to not feel cold while riding, but still chilly enough to wear my scarf and big poofy gloves. Perfect riding weather.

OK, I'm off to read a little bit and then try to fall asleep again. Stupid medications. I want to talk some more about the last entry on danger and some of the feedback I got from it, but I think that'll wait until I've had some sleep.


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